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._. Salaapos;s paranoia or fear or whatever is incredibly contagious , made me wonder if the lumps on my wrists are cysts, too.

And my parents have just been plain schizophrenic today. Half the time they were being total cunts, the other half they were trying to be nice, the former trampling the latter in the fact that they would break their own promises in a matter of minutes. The Epitome of this being when I actually decided to go out for a while into the living room with my parents and bro (with the laptop, but still, I was talking with them and such) and my dad *BITCHED* at me royally over the laptop... And called me even *more* lifeless, he got mad to the point where I GOT SENT BACK INTO MY ROOM ._.;

And my dad is taking this laptop for tomorrow, he needs it for classes, if my messenger turns on, it will be from the desktop, probably.

*hides from Mum who will probably be super-bitch tomorrow*

To Quote: "Tomorrow, when dad isnapos;t here to interfere, we are having a fight."

... What the fuck, man? Iapos;m not trying to cause any trouble, THEY ARE. Today proved that they are the aggressors... >< and 2 weeks ago I thought they would be bearable again for a while. They fucked that all up -.-; I am actually *trying* to be more sociable, *they* undermine the effort. I try to get good grades, I get nothing but yelled at for the one class thatapos;s a fluke. I go out to be with the family for once... I get yelled at because I brought the laptop out. -.-;

I need parents that donapos;t bitch at me for every little thing I do, even if its a good thing I am doing. I donapos;t do bad things , Iapos;m trying to be well behaved, I behave MUCH better than all the kids I know. My parents are paranoid, too. ._. And I am remembering when I was really little when I used to be made to behave by them pulling on my hair or grabbing the back of my neck rather harshly, they did it to my cousin too. Iapos;d say a bit of... Physical motivation... Is necessary at times for kids, like if they do something out of malice, Iapos;d not directly hurt them, but make them do something that is at least uncomfortable (make them stand out in the snow holding two soup cans out to their sides for 10 minutes, while watching them, if they were like 9 or 10, believe me, that works, actually XD) but I wouldnapos;t actually hurt them. If they are younger, they would need to be probably picked up and away from the thing they are doing wrong and demonstrated what is right, or something.

But enough with the parenting thing ._. I want to spend a day where I am not having to worry about Homework, Parents, Friends (or lack therof) and such ><.

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